I know I said this blog wouldn't focus solely on infertility, but alas, that seems to be the trajectory that it is taking.
Today we had our repeat semen analysis and our very first actual "IVF CONSULT", hello! Can you believe that I actually made it to the point where we are sitting in the REs office, we are having a conversation about MY IVF, MY cycle, ME, MINE, OURS, it is REALLY happening this time.
In case you are new to my blog and don't know me, or the background. We began TTC in September of 2007. In September of 2008 we got pregnant with clomid and IUI and I miscarried shortly after that. Throughout this journey there have been LOTS of obstacles and hurdles. My Dad died right before we began trying, in fact his death is what propelled us into starting a family. The year after right before our first IUI, Cris' best friend died in a freak accident. He drowned. That has had an enormous effect on my husband, on myself and on our marriage. It has definitely strengthened our bond, but it has destroyed other aspects of our life. Like the ability to not worry about losing people at a young age etc. I developed panic attacks the following September and severe depression and battled that for a good 3 years. More loss, and then the subsequent diagnosis of my Mom having bladder cancer took us by surprise. Lots of things piling up on one's plate makes it virtually impossible to embark on an emotional ride such as IVF..But as of December of 2013 Mom made 1 year cancer free, I am off antidepressants for 2 years now, and off anxiety medications, currently weaning off the last of my medication and we can finally make plans of moving forward....2014 I am willing that will make 2 years that Mom is cancer free and I am going to make her a grandma in 2015.
Now for the positive news. My sweet darling husband has sperm again! 28 million per cc to be exact. We have the sperm and the eggs and now we are going to make some babies!!
Keep us in your prayers. I can't believe we are FINALLY here!
